to feel a lot like it.

i don't want to,
which sounds ridiculous.

i don't want to fall in love.
i can't really stop that from happening,
but it's just not the right time.

it's like setting myself up to
get my heart broken.

but;
i haven't felt so real
and happy in so long.

to laugh appropriately.

it is possible
for things to be simple.

it is possible
to simply be happy.

to start a new year.

this is a big year.
a lot is going to change.
[a lot has already changed.]

fabulous new year's party.

i am taking life easy.
with my grandma's death it's been a little
shaky around the house,
but there is lots of things to keep me focused
on life and how good it is.

i have so many people
who care about me
& love me
and i couldn't ask
for anything more.

new year
that will be the start
of so many new things.