i hate myself.

...fucking damnit...

why can't everything
just be okay for once?

why do i ruin everything?

fuck.

i can not stop;

listening to:
serpentine
by
chris bathgate.

it is honestly
the most beautiful thing i've ever heard.

where was this when i needed a song
for my who am i? project.

mmm.
so good.

click here to better you life.

& listen to serpentine.

early wednesday morning.

i woke up at five today.

to go to mormon seminar.

it wasn't as scary as i thought it would be.

obama is president.

i'm really glad to be alive for such a

historical election, 

& to actually be cognitively aware

of what's going on.

i'm worried and/or scared,

of things to come.

things changing.

once again,

i have entered a parallel universe,

where i don't feel like me.

i believe it is because i am

without him.

le sigh.

and so it is.

i got accepted to brook's.


today = fuck.

answer:

that this weekend
was good.

but,
i'm missing you.

& the more i think about it
the more i need you to come home
and be with me.

too much rawkstar for one weekend.

:[

come home so i can:
hold you
kiss you
wrestle with you
whoop yo ass in uno
&
tell you how much,
i love you.

today is going to be pretty "blah."
staying home;
i'll catch up on homework.

ugh.

maybe write some poetry.

yeah!